Twice Concerned

Promises were made

I’m not sure I was here that day

Everything seems caught behind these shades of gray

I will ever feel

Like I’m walking a movie reel

Self-hypnosis, switch when I hear the peal

I’m looking for the words to express this twice concerned fear I have for you

But I can’t fake it, I need solace…

He can’t push away

I’ve dug in, here I stay

Now I compete in the dream foundation trade

He won’t let you drown

Even if it drags us down

And I’ll be here when the rising tide becomes your gown

I’m looking for the words to express this twice concerned love I have for you

But I can’t take it, I must stop it

I’m looking for the words to express this twice concerned fear I have for you

But I can’t fake it, no I need solace…

Crazy is my name

Madness now seems so tame

Driving down this road, desire to end this game

Watching as they pass

The trees are soft as grass

And they can’t pretend to hold it all up, to hold up all that past

It’s not working

I’m not working

I’ve broken my spokes on the wheels still turning

It’s not moving

I’ve stopped moving

I can see it now, the past I’m proving

It’s not working

I’m not working

I’ve my forgotten literary harness burning

It’s not moving

I’ve stopped moving

No future or past, I’m only two breaths near the last

…but I’ll still make them last

I’m looking for the words to express this twice concerned love I have for you

But I can’t take it, I must stop it

I’m looking for the words to express this twice concerned fear I have for you

But I can’t fake it, no I need solace…

I can make them last

Monster

Innocence, Naivety
Circumstance, Proclivity
Control is an illusion

Foraging, Interest
Her carriage then her rest
Controlling my delusion

We were user-friendly easy, temptation enough
You were self-convincing

I made a monster out of you

Patience, Teaching
Prescience, Preaching
Control is an illusion

Elevation, Fantasy
Revelation, Ecstasy
Controlling your delusion

We were escaping constitution, alone and together
I was self-convincing

You made a monster out of me

And I know that because I’m good,
You’ll make yourself bad
To make yourself better
And I know that because you’re bad
I’ll make myself bad
Convinced I am better
And I know that if I’ve been wronged
It was on me
Because I should know better
And I know that if you are wronged
It’s my fault

I made a monster out of you.

Bucket List

Here are the 10 things I need to do before I die.

1> Orbit Jupiter.
2> Travel back in time, any historical period will do.
3> Become a god.
4> Deliver the son of the devil.
5> Impregnate one of the muses.
6> Find out where Lazarus is living these days.
7> Kill Batman
8> Become a blockbuster action hero.
9> Play guitar for Cerberus.
10> Make the right choice.

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